Why hello there! My name is Kimber. I am a 21 year old junior at the University of Michigan. For years I've been telling myself "I'll start tomorrow" when it comes to exercise and being healthy. Well it's time to make a much needed change in my life.
Starting Weight: ~150lbs
Goal Weight: 120lbs
Wish me luck!
So this blog has become a sad, pathetic testament of my uncanny ability to give up on things. There are now two years in a row that I’ve been like “This is it! I’m gonna change!” Well third times the charm people!
So, this school year, I’ve been really busy. I have 17 credits and work and I literally have no life. I find it SO hard to fit working out into my daily routine and when I do have the time I’m either making up homework that I didn’t finish, or I’m being lazy and watching TV.
I turned 21 this summer and although I do NOT feel like an adult, let alone a 21 year old….I really need to start making some positive changes in my life.
For example, I’ve realized that the person I was at the end of last school year and now are completely different people. For starters, I’ve made some new friends and I’ve become extremely annoyed with others.
Also, the guy I liked, and had a thing with last semester/beginning of the summer decided he just wanted to be friends and starting dating someone else….so that’s cool.
So basically I’m angry at the world and at myself and I’m seriously ready for a change.
Here we go. Take three. I’ve got my friend Chelsey joining me, and we are going to “get hotter” because we are already hot. :)
I really hope this time will be different. I don’t want to be that girl that’s upset with her body image, but that’s how it is in today’s world. I’m not fat, but I’m not skinny…so I’m not happy. Which sucks because I know that I shouldn’t have to change for anyone. So I’m just telling myself I’m doing it for me. and I am.
The hate fire I have for the annoying friends and the fucktard boy will fuel my need to get healthy.
Let’s just hope it lasts.
I finally did something I’ve never done before…
I started a food log…like for real. Today’s meals are written down in a small blue notebook.
I think this is a good sign. I’m making some serious changes this time around! Let’s just hope I can keep it up.
I went to the gym this morning, and to be honest I almost didn’t go. I went with Callie at 9:30am, and when my alarm went off at 9am I seriously considered texting Callie to say I was gonna work out later. But around 9:20am I made myself sit up and get a move on! I’m sure glad I did. I worked really hard today. It was still just the elliptical but I did a hill track and at times the resistance was set pretty high. I will say that after 30min I looked at Callie’s elliptical and she had kept it at the lowest resistance the whole freaking time! I mean, yeah you can go faster and slower, but you got to change up the resistance to work a little harder! That being said, I felt a little bit better about myself because I am truly working out as hard as I can when I go. I really really want this, and I’ve said this so many times and I’m sick of no change. This time I’m gonna write down everything I eat, blog each day about how I feel, and hopefully vary up my workouts each day.
Tomorrow if Friday and I get done with class at 1pm. I plan to work out after class so hopefully that happens!
Wow. Hello 2013…do you know where 2012 went??
So I reverted back into the “I’ll start tomorrow” person and all I can say is… No one’s perfect.
I have that same feeling I did last year…and it could be because it’s a new year and I want to start fresh or because I actually just want to be healthy.
Last semester I didn’t even step foot in the gym (aside from working at a gym over Christmas break). How sad is that?!?!
So I’ve started to work out with my friend Callie and I want to keep it up! We’ve started out “slow” by working out on Tuesdays and Thursdays. When I say “working out” I mean going on the elliptical for 30 min…which is better than nothing! But I want to do more!
I’ve decided to take part in a “secret” competition. One that my friend is completely unaware of… Callie is a little skinnier than me (she is an average weight…not like stick thin or anything). So I want to work out EVERY SINGLE DAY. Some with her, and some without. I want to eat better and sleep right. Hopefully by the summer I’ll be a healthier weight! I want to actually make a change…I want to actually SEE a change.
I just feel I tend to give up too quickly because I need to see results. When the scale just jumps around the 140-145 range it really isn’t boosting my confidence. And I know the scale shouldn’t matter, but as of right now I don’t have much muscle, so this weight is pretty much fat. I want smaller thighs, a flatter stomach, smaller arms, no more double chin; all the things a unconfident girl in her twenties wishes for.
I just want to walk on the beach in a swim suit and feel amazing and comfortable in my own skin! I want all the guys I’ve been friends with over the years to stare and drool and think “Hot Damn!”. I’m sick of hating shopping because I have to try on clothes that will never fit. I’m sick of getting tired from just walking up a flight of stairs. Basically I’m sick of everything.
So I’m going to do this. For real. And I am not just saying this to whoever reads this (which no one will). I’m saying this for myself. Here I’ve gotten what I really want out on the Internet. It’s not bottled up inside. It’s real. Now I have to live up to what I’ve said…which I failed to do last year. But I’m not a teenager anymore so it’s time to grow up and take control of my life and my body!
Here we go. Take two.
Wow. What a horrible week. I definitely don’t want to say that I’ve shrunk back into my old ways, because I feel guilty that I haven’t been as healthy as I wanted to be, which is not like the old me, but this was a bad week.
My “problem” is that when I started working out on Sunday I got really sick. Like I could even concentrate sick. And it continued to happen on Monday as well as Tuesday. So needless to say I gave up. I really got discouraged this week and I forgot the bigger picture.
Later in the week I figured out a possible reason to my sickness, and I think it has to do with the fact that I’m not eating the best, and working out right after. I need to choose better food, and wait a while before I jump on the treadmill.
This week is going to be crazy busy with class, but I’m going to attempt to get to the gym every day. Summer is on my mind, and I really want to look good and healthy when it comes!
I just keep telling myself…”Everyone has a rough week every once in a while. This was mine.” Time to move on. Tomorrow’s a new day and I accept the challenge to change.
It’s Sunday. Which means I’ve been working out for a week now, and I feel… freaking…TIRED. I slept so much last night, and I still want to take a nap right now. This is good though, because it shows that I’ve been working myself hard.
I have decided that I’m going to run 2 miles everyday for my daily workout. If I pick a day to rest then that means I’ll run 12 miles a week, which is more than I’ve ever done. I’m excited because I can tell that it’s working me good! My legs are tired and sore, and when I run I definitely have to push myself towards the end, but it’s all for the end result. That’s what I keep telling myself….”Just think of what —— will say when he sees you.” I’ll walk on the beach in the summer and just blow everyone’s minds! That right there is what is getting me through, and I know that it should be my own health and happiness I’m after, but I’d be lying if I said that impressing certain people wasn’t a factor in my weight loss.
So for now, I will continue to feel the burn. In 135 days, on my 20th birthday, I will be a whole new Kimber—Looking good, feeling great, and ready to make the summer the best it’s ever been. Look out Marquette, MI. Here I come.
I guess I wasn’t aware that walking to and from an outhouse was a common form of exercise…
So I just have to say…First time in a long time that I’ve worked out everyday. Even if it was for 30 minutes, I got to the gym. I found that I enjoy working out late at night as opposed to like 5pm. It’s less crowded in the gym and I like that. So that’s what I’ll stick with.
I still need to work on the food aspect of being healthy, but I’m giving that a little more time. I’ve started drinking water and lots of it, and I’ve even made myself not eat the pack of Gushers I REALLY wanted at 11:30 at night. *Baby Steps!*
So of course I said I worked out everyday, excluding today…and I feel TERRIBLE! I must be doing something right though because I don’t think I’ve ever felt guilty about not working out…so I’m making progress. In my defense though, yesterday I ran 2 miles on the treadmill and my legs are KILLING me. So I probably wouldn’t have done much today anyways…
Tomorrow is a new day, and I’m going to kick my butt at the gym and it will feel GREAT!